happy day

SO I didn't win the contest, but I'm so excited for Kristal who did, totally deserves it. Even though I didn't win, I cannot complain at where I have gotten. I have tried to lose weight multiple times, not successful and never really tried very hard. When I started the contest, I knew that the first 5 lbs would be so easy to lose. I got to that point and was almost ready to give up. I'm so glad I didn't. I've lost 15 lbs!! I have never lost so much before. I am officially smaller than when I got married and almost the weight when I started college almost 9 years ago!! People are noticing the difference and I had so many compliments at church yesterday. It felt so good. I've never been comfortable with how I looked, even when I was smaller but I don't think I will be complaining anymore. (until I have another kid and get fat again :) ). I still have another 8 lbs to lose for the next contest, but I'm really going to enjoy the holidays wearing all my new smaller clothes.

Long & lean

I bought my first pair of size 8 jeans, I haven't worn a size 8 since I was first married. In fact, I gave ALL my size 8s to my little sis after Clara because I never thought I would be back in them. What a great day! I just got back from some major shopping at the GAP, love their 30% off coupon! It felt really good to feel like I looked good in what I was trying on. I can't fit into every pair of size 8s but at leat 1 or 2 pairs. They are a little snug but I think with another week and a bit of stretching out they will fit just fine... at least till I wash them :) This has been my best weight loss week yet, I'm down to 144. I don't know if it will stay that way because weekends are my hardest but hopefully it will either stay the same or go down. I'm loving this weight loss stuff. I never thought it was possible!

Proud Moment

Today is a good day, I just realized that I have officially lost 10 lbs! Not since this contest, but since I was at my heaviest after Kamryn. When I was nursing I was able to get down to 153 then when I stopped I gained 4 lbs in a month! I was so upset Robert and I went out and got gym memberships! I was able to lose those 4 lbs which lead me to the start of this contest. I went shopping yesterday, which is usually quite a sad thing, but when I looked in the mirror I actually was feeling more comfortable with what I was seeing and the mediums actually fit me!! I also tried squeezing into a size 8, If i were comfortable with having a muffin top and tight pants like many people seem to be, I could have pulled it off. But If i can reach my realistic goal of 140 (ideal goal is 133) Then i think i can be back to a size 8, and THAT will be a really good day.

It wasn't the candy

Halloween isn't hard for me for the candy, though Clara did come home with a few favorites. I can usually resist candy. My downfall is my family, my extended family who LOVES to cook and we all LOVE to eat. Halloween is my sister's birthday so it's a pretty busy day for us full of lots of food and LOTS of desserts. We had her party early in the day, had some soup, a couple home made donuts, I had been saving up my points for the day just for this. I figured I could be really good for the rest of the day. We then head over to my cousins house for an open house and trick or treating. I thought I could resist all that food but it was just too hard. My family cooks too dang good!! So I unfortunately ate a lot, I don't even know how much, I didn't even keep track, I just know I used up ALL my extra points in one night, so sad!!! Some how I didn't gain weight and even went down a pound. This unfortunate day has made me realize this is going to be harder than I thought. I am too weak on holidays when the food is all around so my plan is just do as best I can until Thanksgiving and then just let myself give in. If the food isn't in front of me I can resist it, but put all that good stuff in my face and it will go in my mouth. How did the rest of you guys do for Halloween?? I have only eaten 2 twizzlers.

My Splurge

The bonzi burger... not pictured above... why do you have to be so tasty.

Robert and I have decided we will have a monthly splurge. I figured if I got it out of my system early in the contest it wouldn't affect my numbers as much. So last night we went to Red Robin and of course you can't just stop with the burger. Even though I opted for no mayo and only 1 slice of cheese and a side of melon, I still had to steal fries from Robert. Shame on me. It wouldn't have been so bad, then we got the milk shake! HA! So yeah, it's out of my system. Especially when I came home and calculated the points, I'm not even going to tell you, I'm sure you can figure it out for yourself. Bad Melissa. Oh Food, our relationship is so hard. I love you, but my hips hate you. Sigh. I will definitely be calculating points BEFORE I go out to eat.

I think a major hurtle I need to overcome is letting myself get too hungry especially after I exercise. I feel so good after a good work out the last thing I want to do is eat, i feel like I will ruin my whole workout. So then I let myself starve till dinner and I can't stop eating. I was doing good for a few days, making sure to stay full so I wouldn't be so hungry at dinner time but I get so lazy, I hate cooking, well, i like it but only sometimes. I think that is why I ate so much last night, I was just so hungry.

why are the boobs the first to go??

Not that I mind having a smaller chest, but seriously, why can't my body slim down together, cut inches evenly so my stomach doesn't stick out further than my chest! I'm down 5 lbs now and I really cant see any results, I know I know, it's going to take some time but 5 lbs seems pretty significant to me, plus my heaviest after kamryn was 156, so I have almost lost 10 lbs. Shouldn't my clothes be looking loser??

I feel quite proud of myself since the start of weight watchers, It's true what they say, I feel more accountable for what I eat especially when I know how many points are associated with it. Not saying I haven't screwed up now and then (I ate 12 points worth of chocolate pie on sunday!!) But at least I'm only doing it on rare occassions AND I have been working out more than I have in years!! It feels good. Hopefully I wont get unmotivated which usually happens around now and can stick to it. We were out driving last night to get some minnie mouse ears for Kamryn's costume and both girls had fallen asleep. We will usually drive around some more at this point to help them nap a bit. Robert suggested a Frosty, I was SOOOO tempted but I held strong and said we should just go home. Not a huge deal, but it is to me since we used to get a frosty once or twice a week!!!

If you give a Melissa a cookie....

She'll eat them all up!!! Goodness I was doing so good! I started weight watchers last week and was doing so good sticking to my daily points. My mom invited us over for family home evening and you always have to bake a treat. I thought I could be content with 1 but they were so small and so delicious, certainly 1 more wouldn't hurt.... 2 more.... 3 more??? Seriously, 4 cookies. I went home and added the recipe to my WW tracker, 3 freakin points each!!!!! OUCH!!! Good thing I have the weekly allowance, sheesh. Now I have to be extra careful this week.

We got a new stroller, not a good exercising one, just a nice sit and stand so I can take the girls for walks. We did that yesterday, it was really nice. I think we will do it again today. I am also doing Wii fit exercises, they really got me sore this morning so I just need to do more reps. I really want to start boxing again but the muscle in my chest isn't better yet, I probably should see a doctor about it, but it hurts to box or do turbo jam. We'll see what I do today. Luckily today isn't as busy as yesterday so I can make sure to get my exercising in... and clean the house....

Weight Watchers

I started weight watchers today. I have tried ot once before but it was the old "core" program where you can eat as much as you want of certain things, yeah, didn't work so well. I think I lost 5 lbs in 5 months, blah! So I am going to try out these points. I've realized that I do really well during the day, even before I started. I usually only eat cereal - all bran or cheerios - sometimes with bananas and strawberries, I hardly snack during the day and I have a sandwich or something for lunch. I think my problem is I need to healthy snack more so I am not the ravenous monster at dinner time. I think the points will really help that. I also need to eat more during the day, perhaps more cereal and lunch, so again, I'm not so hungry at dinner.

Reading through all there guidelines, recommendations and stuff was kind of overwhelming, there's a lot to read! I think I have the basic gist of it: take in less calories than you work off - I have known that for a while, but I never really know how much I am taking in and how much I am working off, exercise everyday at least 30 minutes, eat more reasonable portions, and eat more foods that help you fill up faster with out being too fatty. Did I get everything?? I don't have any problem with my drinks, all I ever drink is water. I do however give in to my sweet tooth a lot. Robert usually gives into my begging too. So i think I need to stick with those 100 calorie snacks (though they don't taste that great) or eat pudding with strawberries, I actually like that. And if I make it myself it actually tastes better to me then those premade ones.

The weather is getting a lot nicer so the girls and I went for a walk. I think we need to throw that into the routine at least 3 days a week. I really need a double stroller. Poor Clara got so tired walking that I had to carry her the rest of the way. I think I will make that my next investment. I don't need a fancy jogger one because i don't jog, but it would be better for me to walk with less interruptions. I'm trying not to lose any weight yet, I don't want to start out lower for the contest :)

Starting Over

Ok, so I got pregnant and stopped contributing to this blog, but now I'm not pregnant anymore and no more excuses!! I added the cheetah skin print to my backdrop, because there is something sexy about cheetah print and I'm on my way to a sexier me!! I am currently 153 (as of this morning). I'm exactly where I was at my smallest after Kamryn ( I got up to 156, ugh!). I have had my ups and downs but I really want to kick it into gear, I might even join weight watchers. I definitely need help most with my eating habits, I need structure!! So here we go!!!

My Activity today:
half hour of Wii Gold's Gym Cardio Boxing - 60 calories